Well this year is a year to keep promises to myself. The first of which is to post something to this blog everyday. Something anything just to keep current and to get things out of my head. This is my personal journal. To get things done and to get things started you have to have a plan and that's the one thing that I have always lacked. Well, that and being fickle. I can never decided what direction to go in. Film making, photography, drawing, guitarist. Why not all of them?? And if all of them why can't I settle down and focus? 


Why does ADHD always get the better of me? I start then stop and then never complete what I had started. I want to finish it all. Every project I start I want to finish. Not just stop in the middle but truly complete what I start. And then continue to practice so that I can master it!! That's all I want. That and to be an Oscar winning Director! Oh yeah and to start a rock band, take photos for Rolling Stone. those where my childhood dreams and I still hold tight to them.

Expert From Heaven Letters: "Life in the world is up and down. One day something arrives to brighten you. The next day something arrives that saddens you. But is not this changeableness wonderful? The changeableness is opportunity, and you are being pursued by it. Sadness is no less an opportunity than joy. What you call defeat is no less opportunity than what you call success."
  
I mention this because, I found out the other day that I was a YEAR too late for the NBC Universal program!! That really sucked! I was really banking on it! I really wanted to do the 2 year program, but now i'll be 27 before it rolls around again. I could already be working in the industry as a film producer by then. Plus my dumb ass team members form my last semester's group hindered me from getting my Applications in to the schools and programs I really wanted to get in. But in truth it's my fault I should have done them earlier, but they should have done their work as well.

But that seems to be the story of my life: fear, loathing, and hesitation. Oh and their good friend procrastination.