Well, a while back I subscribed to a site called 43 things. It's a site where you list all the things you want to accomplish and you share them with others. Well, I did that and at the top of my list was: To talk to God face-to-face. Well, around 12:00pm today it happened. Not in the way I expected it to be, but it happened none the less.

I was in Borders, and one of my aunt's friends from her former job showed up. She's currently in seminary school, and they began to catch up with each other. And it was during that conversation that everything she started talking about was a reinforcement of what my aunt had been telling me for years. We started to chat a little bit when I felt a little more comfortable around her. And damn if she just didn't call out all of my fears about myself and my future. A total and complete stranger (at least to me) calls me out in the middle of a bookstore. Hmm, I guess God felt up to the challenge of talking to me.

So, the message of the story was this. I need to stop being so damn afraid of stepping out on my own, stop blaming and being angry at others for a situation I put myself in, move to NYC, and get a job up there as a photographer. Live and mature as a person, because this was more of urgency then a 5 year goal. Go, and go now. Not later, not 1-year or even 6-months out, NOW. So, the procrastinator in me asked, "should I graduate first?" No. You have graduated. Today is your graduation. Congrats! Go now.

In general she said, "He has a purpose for your life that no one else can do." SO, I'm going now. I'm packing my bags, buying my ticket and I'm headed out. To hell with work, I'll get another job. Fuck school, I can transfer to another. NYC here I come. Camera, Guitar, and clothes in tote.

Can't believe he actually called me out. Damn he really is watching me. So God, what do you want me to do, or will you tell me when I land? (tell me now I don't like surprises, but today's was pleasant but scary).